GAY n HOT

Did not get the job

I didn’t get the M&S job but i do feel optimistic about going home. Even though ill be broke ill still be able to watch all of 30 rock after matt bought the first few series for me for Christmas.

I think it could last for a week and a bit but we’ll see.

As for now I’m looking forward to jubilee weekend and a week of cleaning and packing things up.

I can’t believe how dirty this place gets.

One thing i will be looking forward to is coming back to move and going out and having a blast in baby lynch and Floritas probably on the Thursday or Friday when i come over. I want to give my room a last send off and just sit and remember the memories of this place.

I think it will be a summer to remember and i want it to be. Because i just want to just enjoy my free time with people etc.

I hope my brother doesn’t lose our car cause i want to sneek off and drive it round the country. 

One thing i will miss is high speed internet and the fact i cant get radio 1 where i live without having the tv on.

Matt has a car and thank god for that now i can get out of the house alot more. I wonder if i could a summer job in a bar at home cause i think that would be good.

I still have not heard from box about that bus job. Sounds fun though if that works out ill probably ask it to come my way for a night out. I HATE having to wait till saturday just to get buses that make you arrive in Belfast for 9.30pm and the club is barely full. Saturdays used to be rubbish in the box. I might just go to the craics 90 and mondays!

Applying for jobs

So I’ve been applying for jobs from bars to retail. I’ve an interview tomorrow an fingers crossed I get the job at M&S and hopefully another job at a bar. Good thing though is ill have 3 days off a week but earn lots of cash if I get these jobs.

So the last few days I’ve been non stop running around town promoting with flyers and tonight I’m taking myself out.

Now I’m in polo and its really nice except for the clattering of plates and the ear ache I’m getting from 2 women talking about their married lives errr not now love ur voice is being shot across the room.

I’ve wine to calm my nerves from the cackles of those women. Thank god. Tomorrow I meet John about things and I’ve to get emails sorted with the teams.

The next week is going to have its high and lows and I know that but I’ve never been so sure of myself. I’ve decided to take a risk again cause I’ve been burned before by other people at least this time its fully on my own back I’ve done all that work so far. And there is a whole load more to do.

A unbelievable 24hrs…

Where do I start?

This reminds me of going home for Easter again.

I guess there is a point where you can be too honest with people. Telling that you love someone and then told its crazy that you love them seems very stupid. Love has no bounds and people should know that in terms of one’s own relationship with people. I’m not forcing anyone to be anything. I might think they like me but it doesn’t mean I want to change them in anyway.

When people are in fear they attack in fear and try and get rid what they don’t want.

I’ve been told I’m crazy because I talk in parables. I don’t believe that either. I believe that I’m trying to find myself after having so many setbacks in my life I’m looking deep within myself to find those answers of why is this happening to me?

I didn’t choose to love someone because it came from nowhere and I didn’t know what the hell was going on until I realised it was there projected at me.

I’ve accepted that I have to walk away from things and people because they believe that things never change. They made their minds up long ago.

In the next 3 weeks I’ll try to turn things around in terms of doing other things. I’ve this event to do and the promotional work for it starts tomorrow so I just hope I get the numbers for it. I just hope it goes viral on Facebook to get the numbers.

I’m just walking into the unknown right now, I just hope the world will make it work.

Anonymous asked: Because I'm a gay man that likes to care. I guess you're a gay man that loves to hurt. I won't be asking for any more advice.

Last nite was not a good time for me to answer your question. I got a little too drunk last nite after having a confrontation with the person you asked about cause they read this blog.

I’m just curious as why you care so much for me?

Anonymous asked: I guess you're right, but what you said about the 13 year old made me angry; I punched my wall and just got back from a scan and I've broken my 5th metacarpal so i'm booked in for surgery to correct the fracture. I got mad because I know that you're right and i'm just lying to myself. Sometimes I pretend that my rabbit is a therapist and I talk to her about my denial, but she's getting old and she won't be around forever to talk some sense into me. Also does this guy live near you? Who is he?

why do you care ur just an anon

The past few days….well its been interesting

The weekend was interesting, im not normally in the mood to do university work. I finally got some work done thankfully.

I also seen the Newcastle football match in City Vaults bar. The atmosphere was electric!

On Sunday i went and did more university work and decided to leave the rest of  it till today (Wednesday).

Sunday night, well it was a blast was really looking forward to it and seeing knife party. I was surprised that the guys from my flat and their mates asked me to drink with them. I really enjoy spending time with them.

Only thing about it was that some negative things were said by the girls in my flat and ive had enough of it so they got what they didn’t expect me being very rude to them. I wouldn’t be surprised, if you cant take crap for things you dish out don’t expect anyone to sit there and say nothing.

I also met someone after in the club and they seem really dead on, just hope they keep in touch.

Its took me 2 days of trying to get around in my head that i need to walk away from people now for my own good.

Even though there are people i like i just need to walk away cause they clearly don’t want me around. Even though it hurts to walk away from people you knew for almost a year and have changed your life so much. Id do it all again.

Falling for someone was not a good idea either as much as i would like to stay, ive to move on now.

When i first met one of these people they acted like people i knew from my past, so i just said stuff that wasn’t the complete truth just to impress them cause not having people around you for so long and not wanting to get hurt by anyone made me think it was ok to do that. But im really sorry i did it now.

It’s messed everything up. now ive to walk away from people.

it sucks.

Anonymous asked: Are you going to "The Beatles: The Lost Concert" movie premier in a few weeks?

Ive not heard of it and i think i know why ive looked at it and even though id go the premier is only in the USA and not in the UK as far as my googling has shown. I would go though.

My fave song by them is Hey Jude and my brother and me have watched yellow submarine a few times.

I got sorta into them when i was stuck in hospital and downloaded a few songs to see what all the fuss was about after listening to bbc radio 1 on live stream on my iphone.

What do you think of the bee gees?

PS r u from the UK?